Hearing these words was quite nostalgic.
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Hearing these words was quite nostalgic.
The project is far from dead, I just update the Facebook more often than the blog because I feel less guilty about reposting images or self-promoting as smoke signals.
Book 3 is over 80k words in, and I say that because at that specific point, I stopped counting: I just want to focus on telling the story now.
But I have priorities. I can’t afford to take time out of what I do to make a living in order to do what doesn’t reward me with anything physical (and any of you who knows me on a personal level should be aware of how much I care about my readers). I don’t do 11-hour shifts standing up every day anymore, I don’t carry traveler’s luggage and get threatened at booths for doing my job anymore either. I’m not complaining of the work I’m doing at the moment, I’m proud of it. But my health situation is far from great and my current line of work is very time-consuming. So there’s that.
It’s that simple: my job keeps me fed and warm. Unfortunately, right now, TLoSR doesn’t. Being fed and warm are necessities, so they trump things that are not, such as writing the story I am still obsessed about to the point I have over 20 story arc outlines, 3 long-running spin-offs as well as a rough draft of the movie script ready right now and I still don’t think it’s enough because I know that it could still be done better if I was a better writer or planner, but that only makes me want to take more time working on it so I try to push the thought away. If I have to choose between doing my best now in what can improve my life or a book series I can resume or finish writing at any moment, now or ten years from now as long as I am functioning (and I can maximize my chances, if not guarantee that will be the case by prioritizing my job)… it should be obvious which one I’ll pick, right?
So yeah, not mad about people assuming I’m dead or being disappointed that I couldn’t stick to the unspoken ideal of a book a year. Really, I get it. I had to go through that with authors before. But guys, please remember I’m literally making less than any author on Earth that gets paid even a single penny for his time invested on his or her work because I am making zero dollars out of this. None. It might come across as odd to people who met me when I would take any task someone gave me and try to save the whole world on my own, but I am a person and part of what I consider to be my growing up process involved learning that.
I’m sorry I can’t behave as professionally regarding this as I wish I could or have in the past, and I don’t mean to be rude but my point with bringing up money again and again is I don’t owe any of you books. Now, I’m not going to be a spoiled brat and pretend I don’t need your feedback because I appreciate you guys being here and I know it’d be nice if I could release content every other week or so. God knows I’m working on something like that, even if by working I mean “thinking very hard about the subject until it materializes”. I am also not going to say I just write them to myself, because it’s a ridiculously silly excuse. I recognize that I could be better if I wasn’t worried about something else that, in my opinion, takes priority and I take full responsibility for it. But me accepting that responsibility doesn’t entitle anyone to demand anything from me. It might be written for the public, but it’s still mine. I don’t remember signing a contract with any of you. Not even with my former editor, who I still see as a esteemed friend, but didn’t get involved with the project ever since early volume 2.
I will not belittle or ridicule any of you, call people “haters” or threaten to cancel the project if I receive more of those messages simply because I’m not a fansubber, so that behavior would not be considered acceptable. Our up-until-now unspoken agreement remains the same: I write stories if/when I can or choose to do so and you read them if/when you can or choose to do so. Unless, of course, we can get a significant number of people to sign some sort of contract that legally binds them to consume my work on specific dates. I’d enjoy that a lot, to be honest.
Heaven’s territory is coming.
I spent a good deal of last night optimizing my orchestral sample library so we can get a little of the classical flavor on the OST without having my computer crash every chord. Some of you might not know but similarly to Akane, I was a music school student once. This brings back some memories…
Book 3, “time to heal”, is being very complicated to write for some of the reasons I mentioned before: to combine both novel 1 and 2 while adding new elements and end the cycle… it’s hard. What gives me hope is the fact this is all just the beginning.
All in all it’s been one interesting year. I hope every single one of you made the best out of its ups and downs and also that the next one will have even more unique events in our lives.
Novel is near 50k now, trying to get it done till the end of the year.
5515 words down so far, major surreal battles going on.
Got the dialogue for a very important Shin-tsu scene down and more of the cool new characters I worked on yesterday, including a huge speech that may or may not be villainous. Wrote a little more than yesterday, too.
Current wordcount/Goal for the day: 1682/1667
Today I started another sideplot, was a lot of fun because the setting allows for some nice experimentation and, failing to do that, I can continue to rip off Ender’s game. Got some good example of gun porn for it too, which made me notice my tendency of going on and on about subjects mid-narrative is alive and well. Also, got some “Last Battle” scene lines right: I had an idea of how I wanted them to go, but this is it.
Managed to meet the goal. Didn’t go too far from it at the request of my loved one and it was for the best; even though I knew I could write a little more, there’s no need to rush it at first. The fact remains I was able to get a solid set-up down and that’s more than I can say I did when not practicing. Teach your kid to walk slow and steady before he can run, yadda yadda.
How are you guys doing?
So yeah, apparently I got a full time job. Which I already have mixed feelings about because of its conditions. Still, need the money so I gotta give it a shot even if it means throwing NaNoWriMo out the window. Remember when something exactly like this happened last year?
Volume 3 delayed? Yup, it seems so.